I’ve been having some doubts lately and I’m not quite sure what to do.
They are right when they tell you that Satan really works hard on you when you start/submit your papers.
All of a sudden I went from being super sure of myself to being all these things:
-Worried about my call in general
-Worried that I’m not going to be happy about my call even though I know I will be happy with anything
-Sad that I’m going to miss out on so much
-Kinda jealous of my friends who are going to Utah… where I want to be right now
-Jealous of my friends who are in school right now
-Once again jealous of my friends who are dating- I haven’t dated anyone for like 2 years and I have another 2 ahead of me and it’s hard to watch
-Worried that I won’t be able to handle it
-Just all around scared
So I don’t know. The sister missionaries in my ward are AMAZING. and I honestly love them. I’d be their best friends if they weren’t on missions. I already kinda feel like I’m their best friend right now 🙂
But they challenged me to read my scriptures on my lunch break and to pray about feeling the spirit and to read sincerely and for a longer time than I am. I hope that helps… maybe if I build my foundation I will be able to withstand all this crap being thrown at me!!! 😦
Anyways… those are my thoughts lately. I hope I cheer up soon 🙂