Reflections!! (AAANNND my mission video! YAY)


Soooo I’m posting this for no particular reason other than my mission video is complete. I’ve been kinda working on it off and on for a few months and I finally finished it WOO

But basically, I feel like in the past 9 months since I’ve been home, I went through every emotion possible. But time has finally helped me feel normal again 🙂 I think by posting this video it’s a great way for me to kind of close that chapter on my life for now, and move on 🙂

I will be dead serious. IT WAS A BIZNATCH coming home early, yo. Like, I felt so many freaking things. I felt IMMEDIATE regret… as if being sick was something I could change… but i felt like I could go back and “stick it out”. Looking back I can say that no, no I couldn’t have. But it was hard in the beginning.

I went through a period of time where I felt jealous, almost resentful of other missionaries. Like they were rubbing it in my face almost, that they were out and I wasn’t. It wasn’t true, but i felt like it sometimes. And I didn’t even want to write any of my friends for such a long time.

Then I just got depressed. I think when you pour your heart and soul into something and then it just ends unexpectedly, depression is sort of what happens. I was in such a deep depression and nobody even knew. For months, too. It got so bad I really don’t know how I made it.

It sucked because I was sick too, and because I came home early, I didn’t have the money I would have had or any of the plans that my parents were trying to get ready for me when I was going to get back in June. So I kind of did nothing. I just sat around, going to work part time and then wallowing in my stupid sadness the rest of the time.

But don’t worry! There was a light at the end of that tunnel 🙂 I found a job I liked, and quit the ones I hated. (Yes, I quit two jobs in a month’s time haha) And I picked up the guitar. And started working out again. And made some friends. And went out of my comfort zone. And made some future plans!

So I mean…. it eventually got me to where I am now. Which is happy and ready for what the future holds 🙂

But I will never forget my mission. It changed my life, and it will always be a part of me. I mean it’s literally been the focus of the last two years of my life. Completely. But I think it’s time for me to move on a little bit 🙂 I served my best, I met amazing people, I loved another country, and now I have a new part of my life ahead.

So this is my video. This is just a quick 8 minute representation of the insane experience that was La Mision Chile Concepcion. And it isn’t probably going to blow anyone away or anything, but who cares. I made it for me, and this is sort of my “tribute” to it all. But hey. Feel free to watch and enjoy 🙂

Thanks for the memories Chile. It was a great time.


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